I am so incredibly foolish. I, am like a spoiled child that points to and gets whatever she wants, but then realises what she chose was not the best and will not bring her what happiness she thought awaited. In fact, against her better preminition, she made her poor choice from the origin-with an undercurrent of dispair in understanding that she would neither be the complete object of affection, but also the necessary distraction as well. So it has been proven once again that even though she understands exactly what her life entails in every fascet, she still stays her course for the rocky canyon, demise well in view. There is no hind-site 20/20-only preminition that may prove even more acute. I simply wait to fall, and hope I have the stamina to endure yet another broken tragedy of emotion. Even foreknowlege cannot stifle the pain of severed emotions. There is no deflection of entwined. The connection has been made. Guard is incapable of voiding the desparation of loss. I will be and am vunerable. I will be hurt once again, I am foolish and will suffer for it depend on that. I am not exempt.