Tears to my eyes

I may have mentioned that I really wanted a condo just up the road. The owner said if I could come up with $10,000.00 that he would help finance me. Well, I would have to come up with a loan for $10,000.00 with a down payment or collateral worth $1,000.00.

Last year, of course, I used my overtime for 28 weeks to pay the $1400.00 (by December) for Jamaica. I am not making overtime, now, and we were only working 4 days a week for the first part of the year.

I asked if I could borrow $1,000.00 from mom and dad to get my condo. They refused and said I should marry my boyfriend, he could help me get it.

"No, that wouldn't help me as his credit is tied up with previous loans on his former house and vehicle...", I replied.

From their point of view, I was able to afford Jamaica, I can get it myself, I guess.

I pay for the kids to go to private school. They offered to help (if I need it) with funds they received from a friend who died and left them an amount of money to help me with my education (how I was able to go to college).

All that said, I am sure if I was moving into a trailer right next door to them they would be more than glad to help me with it, because they would have complete survellence and enmeshment in my life. (They have mentioned an empty lot next to their place several times...)

Here comes the worst of it, yet.

My son was mad because his grandparents let his sister in his room when he wasn't home, and he had no say so in it.

My Dad then says, "Well, Amber doesn't even have a room that she can kick Alec out of..."

My daughter's "room" is where the dining room should be. We only have a two bedroom, so I partitioned off my girl's area so she would have a place of her own, and we wouldn't have to "share" a room.

Now, how do you suppose that hit me. I spent money to go to Jamaica, my daughter doesn't have a room, and my parents, who won't help me, criticize me for not having a place where she has a room.

Tears welled up in my eyes, but could I say anything? No.

I went to Jamaica...I should have used that money to buy a condo that I wouldn't have been able to afford the payments and taxes on, because the economy went south, and my work slowed down.

Now, realistically, last year may have been the last time I could have done something like Jamaica, as overtime will be lacking this year, and who knows about the future.

I have barely asked for any 'help' from them for the schooling. I could cancel that, but I sure want my kids to have a better start than I did, and they deserve to go to a school that will get them ahead, don't they? I sacrifice there, that is for sure! $677.00 a month. THAT is a mortgage payment, in and of itself. But, that doesn't count, evidently...my daughter doesn't have her own room.... :(

I am now being sued for my ex-husbands old medical bills. Because we were married, I am liable, and they don't give a flip if the divorce papers say we were to split all bills in half.

So, I have to pay that. You tell me how I will be able to get Amber her "own room" now? Eh?!

Catch 22.

We will not get raises this year, it has already been announced.

I was very tempted to move my bed into the walk-in closet, and call that "my" room, and set amber up in the main bedroom, just to make a point. I may still.

Screw them anyway. I have worked very hard, my kids have food, clothing, excellent schooling, warmth and shelter. I am so sorry my parents have never had to experience being a single parent with two children, no support, and formerly accrued bills to deal with.

I just love criticism.